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Rotary Club: Candulawan Medical Mission

Hello pretty little girl eating Skyflakes biscuits

On the first of December I woke up early to take photos for the Rotary Club International (as a favor to my boyfriend’s mum whose heart belongs to these kinds of activities). We went up to Candulawan greeted by colorful flags and many people, mostly little ones. It’s not my first time to something like this as CWTS has also given me similar opportunistic experiences. This time it is a breath of fresh air that this barangay in the south is well taken care of, particularly, in comparison to others. Private sectors such as the Rotary Club give generously without receiving anything in return, something our high government should have done since the beginning of its conception. The citizens themselves have to pick up and continue the job to sustain each other, while corruption seems to be an incurable long-sustained pandemic genetically and hopelessly ingrained into Filipino culture.

a little hand and a thankful smile

for rice porridge

mission

lady soldiers

being careful

government vehicle

best buddies

queuing for blood pressure

young and wild

first time in a long time to see clearly again

holding prescription glasses, finally

waiting for

lining up for medicine. fritz is there beside the door waiting for me, watching the feet of the diabetic man dying and decaying alive. he holds his stick tight.

a little boy making sure to eat every bit of rice porridge

leaning on his world, his mama

saying hello

rotary members dancing with the children

a woman diagnosed with internal bleeding

until now I’m not sure what was wrong with this little girl’s skin

innocent eyes and quite scared of new things so he holds his mama and brother

i did not know governors had their own calendar

going around and making sure there are no problems

Singaporean delegation giving out Dunkin’ Donuts. She was smiling the whole time

the woman diagnosed with internal bleeding needed to be sent to the hospital, with a younger girl and baby in tow

a lady soldier comes out of the comfort room inside the classroom and uses the pail of water to flush the toilet

little girl staying inside a classroom

math at public schools

growing up

Christmas lanterns decorated in the classroom, welcoming the festive season

Tis the season to count blessings, be thankful and give munificently! If you’ve learned something new or insightful this particular month, I’d like to hear about it if you wish to share below. Only a few more hours until Christmas, world. God bless us all~

2011.

I must admit, I thought I’d accomplish more things this year. But looking back, I think I’ve done the best I could. Some of the most important life milestones happened for me this year and I think they’ve been more meaningful.

Rounding up from last year’s post, here are some of the things I can actually mark off:
1. Upgrade my camera body (currently having a Canon 350D)
-Oh yea! I now have my 5D Mark ii buddy with me on shoots, although after each one the firm grip gives me hand allergies. Talk about suffering in love.

2. Finally graduate with a Bachelor’s degree of Science in Information Technology
– I did and did so making my family proud. Yay! So glad to finally be done with academics. Although I am thinking of going into a more artsy-fartsy specialized course… Hmmm.

3. Travel more
– Satisfactory. I feel immensely blessed to be able to tour around America. It is a beautiful country. Also, I’m officially able to travel to Manila and Singapore by myself anytime I need so. Independence is sweet.

4. Work outside the country
– Wasn’t able to do this. :( Decided not to push through with my photography apprenticeship in Singapore because it just wasn’t worth it. Tried to get an IT job instead but I lacked the experience… So, that only means there is another path for me. I hope to find it soon! :)

5. Take more editorial jobs
– This I have accomplished many thanks to David Cua from Zee Lifestyle (Cebu) and Katsu Modomo and Shiloah Matic-Ma from Summit Media’s Total Girl magazine (Manila). Thank you for all the opportunities! I am forever thankful.

6. Read more (I currently have like five books in queue)
– Noooo! I think I’ve only finished reading two books this year. 😐 The most recent one being “Don’t Worry, Be Happy” by Bo Sanchez which is a very light and good-hearted read. I keep a copy on my office desk so I don’t lose myself in the monotonous work pace and dullness of a concrete space.

7. Learn how to be independently financially stable
– This is a half slash because I’m getting there… Slowly, but surely. I tend to over budget or under budget at times so I’m still trying to find my own personal way of handling money. I tend to splurge more on food and gadgets/camera stuff than clothes and shoes anyway so it’s probably… Not so bad? Or maybe bad for my fashion sense.

8. Drive better
– This is a year where I’ve actually drove the least. But I can safely crush this out because I’ve driven on a stick-shift and not crash or anything. Not even a scratch or dent. Hee.

9. Learn how to quote on service fees better (For now this is my ultimate weakness)
– Hmm… A lot better than last year, yes. So I guess I can mark this off but it still remains to be practiced.

10. Facebook less
– I hate you! So distracting and entertaining. :)) I wait for the day I tire of Facebook.

11. Write more
– I have actually written a lot more than last year, more stories than blog posts in my secret writing haven. I don’t think they’re any good so I’m not yet ready to reveal the URL. But I think I saw two people I didn’t know follow me, so I wonder how they found it. It’s amazing how some people really know their way around the Internet.

12. Learn how to cook real meals
– Oh nooo. This is probably the least achieved on the list…

13. Dress up more often (not really necessary but it would be nice)
– Maybe I can do this next year.

Things that I want to accomplish next year :
– Work on an idea for a business!
– Travel to a beautiful place
– Visit my mom in Australia
– Write more stories
– Shoot more photostories
– Work on our dream book constantly (perhaps a separate post about this)
– Collaborate with many more passionate people
– Get my own domain name (still thinking about a good one. maybe my full name would be too long for a dot com)

Things that happened this year :
– First editorial, Happy Days Are Here to Stay, published for January 2011 Fashion editorial for Total Girl Magazine
– Shot the Spring/Summer 2011 Campaign for DollFace Cosmetics
– Shot the Summer 2011 Campaign for Mejia Bespoke Shoes
– Shot the June 2011 Fashion editorial for Zee Lifestyle, The Callithump
– Collaborated with The Humanizer for The Male Factor 2011 exhibit
Graduated from university as Cum Laude with a Bachelor’s Degree in Information Technology
– Underwent LASIK to correct my vision
– Shot one of the fashion editorials, The Preservation, for the September 2011 Zee Lifestyle fashion issue
– Shot Raleene Cabrera and Samantha Benitez for Zee Lifestyle’s Fashion Femmes
– Shot three Prefall 2011 Campaigns for What A Girl Wants, Paramanesia, Full Circle and Anonymous
– My shots for Ink’d Tees was around the booth at IT park during the bazaar
– Traveled around America with family
– Got my first ever job at Accenture
– This blog, Her Soliloquies, got published on the Nokia Ovi App site thanks to Charles Julius Tan from Nokia Philippines
– Participated in The Nonsense Society’s awareness film with other artists from around the world
– Collaborated with Cebuano Tours for my photostory, Cleopatra’s Blood Siren
– Shot Lani Pasquet for the January 2012 personalities feature for Zee Lifestyle magazine (to come out next month marking my first cover shoot! So excited!)
– Decided to participate in Artists Wanted’s Year In Review Contest. Please vote for me here!
– And last but not least (beware beware, cheesiness alert), I found a love that’s here to stay forever… :)

Happy New Year to everyone around the world.

Before It Dies.



I’ve spent the last weeks in deep thought while cherishing every simple instance.

Living in the moment but hypocritically thinking about the future.

I want to write about the things I learned when I traveled alone and came back, with nothing but impalpable rewards. I will write what I want for my poor memory’s sake. This entry will be full of my very boring musings so beware… You have been warned.



When I arrived at my destination I was greeted warmly, with introduction of crazy ideas and possible routes in life. I wanted to stay there, I thought, as long as I could. For the longest time I constantly found myself in this particular country, back and forth throughout the years since I hit 16 years old. It was the first of my many travels and little did I know I would have gone more than a handful in the years to come. It opened doors, and the saying is quite true, “When you’ve been there twice most probably you will be able to go back again. (and some more)

“For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” Luke 12:34

But at the end of my trip I realized something very important. It actually wasn’t the country that I wanted to go back to… But it was the warmth of those who were there, who always welcomed me.

I wasn’t after the destination, I was after the life and love created by the people.

One of the most important things I learned was about family. Uncle P is a quiet man but when he’s with family he likes to throw jokes around from time to time. My aunt told me he was always the father who would drop even the busiest of projects just because his children needed him. Need be small or big, needing a ride home from a fun day with friends or a show his child would participate in–my aunt told me she always believed that parents should be there to support. Both of them are an amazing couple, and excruciatingly humble. You could never notice that Uncle P was hassled to pick you up from the airport, because he would never even give a hint of complaint or fidget when the office called for him. You could never notice that Aunty B was drained of energy or tired of bringing you where you had to go, because she would always give out a hearty smile and go on and on with endless conversation even when she was actually about to get a fever. She was the kind of mother who knew when to step back when adolescence called her children and step forward when maturity kicked in. She knew when to give space and when to give kisses.

Staying with them taught me so many things in two weeks that a normal person would either learn in a lifetime, or never learn at all.

The best provision you can give your kids may not be education, shelter, clothing or money, but a good example in life.

Even though they will never know it, they touched me with their own little world. I hope that when I have a family I will be able to nurture love in my home like them. They don’t have the most perfect or successful children, but they have the most emotionally healthy and truly happy children I’ve seen. Even their children console other children. Outside their world, most parents never fail to give money or material things in lieu of their absence. But these material things can only go so far… And it will never be truly satisfying. Whether one likes it or not, his childhood will always play a part in shaping him as a person consciously or subconsciously.

However, given good or bad childhood, it is ultimately up to the individual with how he deals with life itself. To learn from it or make it as an excuse–there is always a choice.

Because all that we are is a result of what we have thought.

“Most of the time, forgiving someone is for your own sake than for the one who wronged you.

It is better to be free than to hold on to unproductive grudges. Who knows? The person who wronged you may not even have the slightest clue you’ve felt burdened.”

I learned to take a step back and notice the little things people do for me. I have to say it’s not easy and most of the time never evident, because the world will not tell us outright “this person did this just so you could do that”. No, most of the time we go by and accept gestures as if it were rightfully given to us. As if it were obliged to be done to us.

But if we truly want to live to the fullest then we have to step back and take an effort to think about other people more, appreciate what we have, keep standing even though we’re all bruised and hurt, be positive even when its tempting to be cynical and be utmost thankful for what we don’t deserve. Blessings shouldn’t be hoarded or it will never be able to multiply abundantly. So it follows that when you share what you have or learned, you might get more than you already bargained for.

Going against any current will be very difficult but not impossible.

Another thing is, I’ve always thought that achieving my dreams meant to shoot for big magazines or get majorly paid to do photography. But I was wrong and it took quite a while for me to realize that. I found that I was truly happy creating imagery that I wanted, and collaborating with people who were as passionate as I was. It always brightens my day when people tell me they love my works. I’m always touched when even the youngest of girls to the maturest of men tell me I inspire them. Thank you everyone for inspiring me as well.



In the end, I realized chasing success could only give you so thin a happiness as compared to truly loving what you do. Challenging yourself to see how high you can go isn’t wrong, but when will you be satisfied enough to stop and appreciate the beautiful world below? There were times where I shot for the sake of shooting, and even if I was doing photography it didn’t drive me as much as I thought it would.



Commercially, it is always a great opportunity to be part of a greater picture and I’m always thankful for them. But this post is to remind myself about things that truly matter to me. I was ecstatic about shooting for magazines, but I was always inspired and felt so alive when I was shooting my photostories. In the end, come what may! I tried to hold photography off, but I still find myself looking at my camera, shooting photos, capturing moments, thinking of possible imagery. I still value photos so much and realized that whatever I do, office job or starting a business, photography will always be a part of Anne Lorraine Uy.

I don’t know why but every time I click that shutter button, I’m ALWAYS excited to see how the photo comes out.

Even if for some reason, I am always getting allergic reactions on my hands from my 5D! My mom laughed at me when she said, “You truly love photography because even when you’re suffering, you still go back again and again to hold onto it.” Someone mentioned that if it’s truly your passion, you won’t be able to fully quit. When a singer retires, I bet she still sings in the bathroom. When an artist gets arthritis, I bet he still envisions imagery whenever he closes his eyes. When a musician loses his instrument, I bet he still hums along tunes of his fancy.

Because passions are beautiful like that.

This is to remind myself that I know in my heart that I don’t mind not having the fanciest of things, nicest of clothes or tons of money. Ultimately, I just want to be happy and grow old contented. I want to live to the fullest.. Which is actually quite different depending on every individual’s terms. :) I know I have the tendency to be consumed in work, because I have a bit of a workaholic in me. That is why I want to remember to once in a while STOP. Anne, always remember that relationships matter and nature is literally wonderful!

I want to continue to believe in people who matter. I want to be grateful for even the smallest of things. I want to continue to fight for my own treasures, even when many might tell me they’re junk. In life, a lot of times only you can truly fathom the value of your personal holdings. And even if you try to make people understand, not all of them will have the heart and time to.

For me, traveling always reminds me how God is imagination-endless.

When I was going around the country, I was able to take a bus by myself. I totally felt like I was in unfamiliar territory… And what I could only refer to were snapshots from an app and pure gut feeling. Since it was my first time I was extra conscious of everyone and everything around me. I found a very old hunchbacked man carrying groceries for what seemed to be for a whole family. I gave him my seat whilst thinking of why he had to do this task when he looked too old to do anything but be spoon-fed… I wondered what kind of events in his life summed him up as the person he is now, nearing the end.

Some people will have life pass them by, and others will live every day always remembering how they shouldn’t let life pass them by.

Eventually, I did reach my destination. What I wanted to remember was the exhilaration of finding my way, feeling independent and being proud of this small challenge. For some reason, it made me feel that the world is so so big and I am but a tiny speck of a person. Things like problems are only as big as we make it to be.

One of my favorite things to do is driving to the mountains or a beach and just thinking about how I can make myself a better person.

Admittedly, right now I am in a state of waiting. Doing and waiting at the same time. Waiting whilst reflecting in the midst of my crossroads. I don’t want to waste my time, so I thought I might as well do what I can while I’m still free (spending time with friends, going out together, writing, reading and all other simple things that can be harder to do once you get older).

Down on a field of grass and flowers, gazing at the sky when suddenly a bird brings itself to wonder what in the world am I doing.


My Young Adulthood Crisis.

There has been so many things running through my mind lately, and I’m not even sure if I should start. I admit I’ve lost touch with my blog making it as impersonal as it is now. I used to blog about my life, friends and all the small things that make me a human being. Like how I’m downloading Pro Zombie Soccer Apocalypse right now, listening to Adele’s Someone Like You in my cousin’s room in Maysprings (if you’re reading this now J, thanks so much), while thinking about how my interview will go at 6PM tonight.

It makes me feel uncomfortably vulnerable to pour my heart out in this blog, but I realized that I used to blog for myself and it was simple fun. Where did that go? I became afraid to reveal my humanity when my number of followers slowly grew.. I couldn’t take the thought that so much attention was possible. I feel utterly shy and timid… But I’m gonna step up and grow up. Great things come to those who are brave, I believe that.

But I figured this is something all of you should accept as well; aside from being a photographer, I am also a girl, an ordinary human being with a soul just like you. Maybe when I read this entry a year or two from now, I’ll look fondly at my youth and heart. When current hurdles are dealt with and victory comes, looking back they will be worth all the anxiety and sleepless nights. I decide to remain positive.

I feel so foolish to think I reached this far trying right now, but I know whatever the outcome, there is a great God that will take care of me. I might get hurt with the results, but it just means there is a better plan. I won’t stop believing because it is the only real thing in my life that drives me to do my best through the incredible struggles, and ultimately, it is the only reason to truly live in a world with endless possibilities of all kinds of unimaginable pain.

I’ve dabbled on quitting photography.

I know I’ve written so many things about chasing your dreams and living out your passions, but in my case, I’ve realized that I may have been selfish most of all to my parents. Honestly, the kind of photography I do really isn’t enough for me to make a whole good living. I want to be able to make my parents proud of what I have/will become, so I’ve half-heartedly settled on finding a good boring office job that would be enough to let them know “I’ll be ok now. You did your duty well raising me and providing all my needs.” I just want to give something super great back to them… So if I still can’t get a good enough income with photography, I am willing to work hard doing the mundane office jobs I loathe.

You may ask, so why not do weddings and events?

I love making a kind of art, the ones that are similar to paintings. Art that can tell a story, art that leaves you wanting more, that makes you wonder, that draws you in. I can’t be in it just for the sake of taking pictures, it’s the whole creative process of making an image… Thinking of switching to events, I immediately know I don’t have the stamina to do it. Most of all, I don’t want to risk ruining real people’s precious major major moments like a debut or wedding. The possibility kills me.

But it doesn’t mean I’m giving up on my dreams, I know well I shouldn’t. I’m probably just gonna put them on hold. When I told my cousins about this, one of them hugged me and said “It’s such a waste of your talent!” Even at that sad moment, I was happy because she recognized that I had something unique to offer that not everyone else could give.

I’m eating oatmeal biscuits right now. I love anything with oats. I really don’t want to end this on a depressing note, so I’ll say it’s not really as bad as it sounds. I haven’t completely decided yet but I surrender to fate. I’ll just have to see for myself what Life has waiting for me beyond the door.

2010.

Before the new year comes to welcome me, I’d like to be able to look back at 2010 wholly and round up everything significant that has happened. Hopefully I’ll be able to do this every year, and it would compile to be like annual reports of personal progress and life highlights.

Things that happened this year (not in any particular order since my memory’s ability doesn’t stretch that far):
-Got published in Chalk Magazine as one of the girls for its Fashion Chalk Walk
-Featured as one of the many artists around the world in SHUFFLE, an Australian’s thesis magazine
-Flew to Manila for COMDDAP’s Imagen IT’s online photo contest; won First Place
-Visited my grandfather’s hometown in ShenZhou, China with family for All Soul’s Day
-Accomplished my OJT at WebXpress Cebu and got to be a junior project manager
-Made my Facebook likepage which as of the moment has 3,000+ likes
-Flew to Manila to shoot my first editorial for Total Girl magazine
-Featured in Y101 FM‘s website and dubbed “Cebu’s Photography Sweetheart”
-Attended my first photography workshop – Chasing Light 1.0 Advanced Landscape
-Actually cared about Philippine politics and voted for the first time
-Shot What A Girl Wants’ Vintage Sophisticate collection; which got published on the newspaper SunStar
-Shot ByDetails’ Chic Sophisticate collection
-Shot Neil Felipp San Pedro’s Alexandria & Cleo
-Shot Ink’d Tees Facebook, barkada & eco-friendly shirts
-Modeled for Hannah Bacalla‘s Dolls series
-Modeled for Ink’d Tees CAS shirt
-Received an email that my blog was nominated for the Philippine Blog Awards under the Visayas region (but I read the email too late so I wasn’t able to officially accept the nomination -.-;)
-Participated in the HobCon 2010 exhibit with the Cebu Digital Photographers; auctioned prints
-Accomplished eight photostories: Cosplay Slumber Party, Belle, Fragile Geisha, Romance of a Doll, Oerba Dia Vanille, Can You Say Ulzzang?, Trust Him & Requiem for a Dream

Things that I want to accomplish next year (not in any order either):
-Upgrade my camera body (currently having a Canon 350D)
-Finally graduate with a Bachelor’s degree of Science in Information Technology
-Travel more
-Work outside the country
-Take more editorial jobs
-Read more (I currently have like five books in queue)
-Learn how to be independently financially stable
-Drive better
-Learn how to quote on service fees better (For now this is my ultimate weakness)
-Facebook less
-Write more
-Learn how to cook real meals
-Dress up more often (not really necessary but it would be nice)

My dad’s constantly calling me out to play with sparklers now. Once again I will be staying in a corner watching him with much worry while he lights up the Judas’ Belt.

Ugh, I love fireworks but I cringe at the sight of people I love playing with them.

So tata, hope everyone has a happy new year! God bless. :)

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